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Well, there are somethings i wanted to tell a person so much.. but somehow.. i'm really unable to do so.. guess for now, i can pour it out here..

well, i attended a recent talk by a specialist.. which changed a lot of my thoughts..

he said.." every doctor has their own little secret graveyard, at their backyard, how many are you gonna dig up"..

he said this because of the attitude.. how many are you going to kill, because of your mistakes? your competence? your ego?

and how are you going to take it?

he meant by.. to remind us.. that we are still human.. we make mistakes.. that's fine..
but how many of the mistakes can we prevent if we studied harder? paid close attention?

he said.. i maybe a specialist..an accomplished one.. but i do have my graveyard.. and every hole i dug. reminded me, how much i should have changed for the better..

everything is key..

and he told a story.. when he was a houseman.. when he encountered the 1st death.. he said.. he knew the patient had just a number of weeks left.. but he was glad that he made a bond with the patient..

a bond.. that he was more than a doctor.. but was also a friend.. who helped and eased..

how? ... listen.. there are many things about listening..
he said the patient told him his life stories.. the mistakes the patient did..
that he ended up on his death bed.. all alone.. had no 1.. no wife no family..
not even good friends.. felt miserable.. for what the patient had done, when he felt he was immortal..

he regretted every word he said to his loved 1s.. hurt them much.. and now, he is on his bed.. just wishing how much he can meet up, with his family to say that he is sorry.. and that they are precious to him..

how much that shook the doctor.. who listened.. he knew if he kept his ego, and the false pride he owned being someone that can really change someones life.. he would end up all alone 1 day.. though he may get his riches.. and wealth.. but that doesn't follow you to the grave does it? all the more, just your dear 1s would follow you to pay respects there.. and remember you as a man who lived..

somehow, he realized then and there..
that he wasn't someone..
who just treat people with drugs or some methods..
but he was there to heal..
healing the soul..

giving comfort to the person who knows his destiny is to die..
that you know you don't have enough time to do what you needed.. and wasted a lot of opportunities when it came..
saying that there will always be a next time or a tomorrow..


a roughly 6 weeks later the patient died.. and left a letter for the doctor..
said thank you for listening my stories..
i feel much relieved that i was able to tell my life to someone..
and i hope you be a very very good doctor and a friend..

and the specialist said..
that changed my life..
a lot..
i didn't become afraid.. to tackle hard cases..
and neither to give up on a patient..
no.. i don't treat them as a patient..
but as a fellow human, a friend who needs in care.. and healing..
in which i'm good at..*winks*

so be confident in yourself..
if you feel disheartened.. and not sure what you doing.. and how to go..
then go straight on! cause thats the only way.. *grins*

see your steps.. watch them grow even more confident in every stride..

and you find your purpose in this world...

and of course.. never walk alone.. haha.. you might just go astray without not knowing it..

walk together.. so there is someone to remind you.. who you are.. and which path you should be going..

find that someone.. that changes you, everytime, and gets the best out of you..


garrh... and so mahes, take confident strides to what you can become..

OUTDO YOUR POTENTIAL menon!! hahaha!

and never hesitate to care for someone.. who knows you never get that opportunity again..

up up and awaaaaaaaaay!^^

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