~last day on 2009~

to say for the least, i feeling pretty better now.. though a lot has happened and a lot problems arose.. there are always people who loves me and looks after me.. hahaha.. a lot people said i'm always lucky.. well.. there is always.. someone up there taking care of me... he said to my mum to make me a doctor.. and here i am in med school.. and thinsg have been going pretty well.. so.. yeah.. i know im worried.. for the next year..whether i can or cannot continue.. somehow.. i feel he will help me when the time is right... i look forward to see you one day..... then it will be my time to tell stories to you.... wait for me achicha....

happy new year!! a lot of new stuff will be ahead of me.. i hope to change and bring change as well.. a lot of transformation i'm going.. in a few hours i wont be considered a teen.. haha.. so yeah..

well, a lot has happened and a lot will happen.... i guess i'm pretty looking forward to everything...

a beginning of a new chapter in my life, hopefully for the better..^^

~winter fever~

At time when friends part,
Even if they don’t want to,
But as life move on,
I want you to know
Though we don’t see each other,
I am always there for you,
Cherishing every single memory
Of me and you.

~sweetest coma again~

i guess a lot people do misunderstand me a lot.. when i am sick.. people think im in love.. and when i'm jiwang-ing, people think im sick.. i'm stressed as well.. no mood to study.. laziness in.. wish i had the drives like during in high school.. somehow.. im always motivated to study... i think i lost the motivation........


so... i guess i should find a new motivation then?... i have a name in mind.. but is it worth it? i mean.. its obvious... but really.. haish.. i need to get this monkey out of my back... before its starts growing bigger into a gorilla maybe...


but then.. i miss my old motivation terribly.. been going through pictures and stuff.. and.. poof.. i cant sleep again......


i think i'm getting desperate.......