~little wing~

standing next to a mountain, and you gotta chop it down with the edge of your hand.. owh wells, have to study and work thoroughly, a lot things to do and think about.. and yeap, my brain and body coordinating.. and oh, played in the russian league again, i know i shouldn't but, erm.. emergency ganti.. so.. yeah.. for some reason i played.. and somewhat im enjoying all the cramps and stiffness of the body.. i guess i needed that.. and to be honest, i kinda OWNED the matches.. i never thought i can play mix doubles, havent had any proper 1s since sec school..haha! russian girl hands down impressive..haha! she never seen me before i guess, cause i never went for the other matches. and i have loads to read and study, i should be prepared, but not to hard onmyself, but im eager to learn and work for it.. so i should. just that today i was really feeling a bit dry, and trust me, a good dollop of chocolate ice cream would help..haha! and oh, gotta admit, new diet seems better, i seem to have less lazyness and more energy when i need my energy.. no longer feeling energetic middle of the night, but feeling good on the mornings instead.. cutting less on coffeee as well yeap, gotta stay strong and positive. though at times i do feel like talking, but keeping your head low for a while is agood thing.. need sometime out for everything i guess.. havent played any computer games for 2 weeks.. god bless me.. i guess i would play some this weekend.haha. anyhow, life goes on, i did what i needed to do today, yeap, i set stuff right again, it feels right, and yes, i shall continue to trot along.. and i shall keep encouraging and giving positive messages, i would do my part, and hopefully she feels better by it.. hopefully. =)

~keys~

i guess today was a good day after all.. it did turn out well.. i went to the event and took photos, shawn came, and teman me all the way.. appreciate that a lot.. and when i reached home, i had bought some food outside, ate it cold, and yeap.. began to edit pictures.. and i'm glad i get to spoke with you today.. haha.. woken up early, because of sms-es.. quite surprised, juniors, seniors, batchmates tried to fix some plans with me.. but i said no, and stayed home, waited for you.. i did know you won't make it.. and the very weird thing is.. i'm not upset at all.. i guess i did grow up.. and it was worth waiting for you..i know that somehow we would talk to each other, and it will be worth it, so am waiting to that with my positive energy for you.. need to re-energise you again! hehe! so yah! come back soon! and safely! though i really want your camwhore pictures..hehe! anyway, a lot things happen, neighbours brought food, received hugs, and slices of small cakes, and CINABBON from andrew.. with a card too.. people keep bringing food, some said next week, and all.. and oh, thank youuu evien! hahaha! damn cute! you said 1st time skype with video with guy, said happy birthday, cantstop smiling and cut off.. seriously.. i couldnt stop laughing for hours.. thank youuuu! the tweets of wishes.. and food.. and more food.. totoba and the rest! yeap! im glad.. masha and olya wishing me.. its really really great! im glad i have hot russian friends.. have huge makan sessions in sunday.. and i hope everything works out well! maybe i have no 1 to make a video or do something special for me.. but i have everyone thinking of me at that 1 moment.. to me, its something special already. anyway, girls who can play drums are hot, somewhat turns me really on.hahaha.. i love bassist as well.. and i played nba today, hit the winnings hot, 3 pointer with a foul.. thats awesome.. watched a malayalam movie, ate icecream.. edited pictures, daydreamnt, felt like everything will just turn out fine.. and i love my prants alot.. he said the darnest stuff.. that really touched me.. yeah..i will remember you advices.. and i know what i must do.. i will still walk the path i chose.=) happy birthday mahes