~friday the 13th~

i can't help it.. gotta write something though its saturday the 14th now..*shrieks*.. but, yeah.. i guess i should write something when i have the chance though its not what i should be doing now.. because i have super damn loads to do now.. like bloooday damn loads.. not to say my studies been dropping.. i really gotta push myself... like really push push..

mood wise, i guess, im not in the best of mood lately.. groupmates, roomates.. garrrhh.. perhaps im too over sensitive.. i don't know.. my patience.. and my chill aura.. is like gone.. i get erm.. like really annoyed with a lot people lately.. maybe i have too much time to think of the unnecessary? can i change that much?? or is that im still normal, but the way they are, are just beyond tolerable.. i don't know. and i dont plan to indulge further so.. i guess i plan to just letting it go.


well, to be very honest im actually waking up in fear.. everyday.. for the last few days.. i watched a horror movie, in a dark room.. which was not mind.. and there was like many teddy bears around.. creeeepppppeeeh!!!!!!!! bloooday insidious and the rite.. but to be honest, kinda feel good to be scared.. hahahahaha.. can wake up early..lols.

anyway... im actualy baffled.. in how much i should find to survive this summer.. i mean seriously..

get new laptop, if not worth fixing.. rm6k?
attachment rm3k
lense 800
stationaries and bags.. 200
new clothes 500
perhaps a new phone? rm2k
go all over wherever i can in malaysia while im home and havinbg fun. rm2k
a new watch? rm20 pasar malam baby!
and perhaps, save up for europe trip? rm4k..

so all about 20k... hahaha.. it seems so farfetched huh..
im not even working.. nor having any sort of income..
just a really poor student..

but hor.. the list has more wants than needs.. owh wells.. im such a glutton..

but somehow.. i have a super strong feeling.. by the time of the next friday 13th. of next year.. i will get most of it done.. hahaha.. i have faith in the dude high up in the heavens.. HE guides me! so yeah! i have faith.. and i put my good fight!

If i can't get it done, means its impossible to do..

as long there is a possibility, i will strive till all my blood and FATS dry up.. haha!^^

my handphone been quiet......


and need to call mum.... so mahes stop buying a lot of chocolate! wasting wasting!


next weeks forecast..
pirazhkov, tezikov, pancreatova, ineekeeva, bondarchuk(bondarCHOKE)..
though i feel i am really unprepared for anything, but i have to push for something..

a lot shed for this opportunity.. so i can't let it go.. *repeats the song lose yourself*

mmm.. wanna go play guitar for a while.. ^^