~last day on 2009~

to say for the least, i feeling pretty better now.. though a lot has happened and a lot problems arose.. there are always people who loves me and looks after me.. hahaha.. a lot people said i'm always lucky.. well.. there is always.. someone up there taking care of me... he said to my mum to make me a doctor.. and here i am in med school.. and thinsg have been going pretty well.. so.. yeah.. i know im worried.. for the next year..whether i can or cannot continue.. somehow.. i feel he will help me when the time is right... i look forward to see you one day..... then it will be my time to tell stories to you.... wait for me achicha....

happy new year!! a lot of new stuff will be ahead of me.. i hope to change and bring change as well.. a lot of transformation i'm going.. in a few hours i wont be considered a teen.. haha.. so yeah..

well, a lot has happened and a lot will happen.... i guess i'm pretty looking forward to everything...

a beginning of a new chapter in my life, hopefully for the better..^^

~winter fever~

At time when friends part,
Even if they don’t want to,
But as life move on,
I want you to know
Though we don’t see each other,
I am always there for you,
Cherishing every single memory
Of me and you.

~sweetest coma again~

i guess a lot people do misunderstand me a lot.. when i am sick.. people think im in love.. and when i'm jiwang-ing, people think im sick.. i'm stressed as well.. no mood to study.. laziness in.. wish i had the drives like during in high school.. somehow.. im always motivated to study... i think i lost the motivation........


so... i guess i should find a new motivation then?... i have a name in mind.. but is it worth it? i mean.. its obvious... but really.. haish.. i need to get this monkey out of my back... before its starts growing bigger into a gorilla maybe...


but then.. i miss my old motivation terribly.. been going through pictures and stuff.. and.. poof.. i cant sleep again......


i think i'm getting desperate.......

~kenangan terindah~

good song btw.. haha.. should hear it sometimes.. gives the feel of nostalgic.. makes you think how much you have gone through , to be here, on the comfy bed.. typing this..

a lot positive comments.. one of my group mate, even gave me a hug.. though it was random.. though it was sudden.. i appreciate it a lot.. its always nice to know that someone cares..makes me feel part of the family(among the group mates)..

badminton coach been criticizing me, saying i'm not serious in my matches.. too much of flair shots.. and outrages moves..(mistakes as well)... haish.. feel bad.. its not i'm not playing seriously.. its just that. thats the way i play.. yeah... i agree, it looks arrogant.. my opponents who played against me, long ago, said, they felt i disrespect them.. haish. sorry lah.. tak sengaja.. its just my way.. my style.. lols.. but i would try to change.... hope, thsi week, he gives me a chance, to prove that i can do it..

more positive and good comments from close friends recently.. definitely a confidence booster.. hope, can use this hype and all to make me more semangat to study..

i miss my high school... my town.. and my bolster terribly... ^^

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....................sigh..........................

~alberio~

woke up pretty late today.. lols.. didnt prepare for biochem class, which is bad.. now im regretting that i should have done revision prior to the class.. avdeeva said something to me, "ur noise is proportionate to your mistakes".. lols.. apa nak buat? i asked for it, didnt i.. moral, is to study on fridays.. i barely passed the mcqs too..

i feel so dry now.. and really dont have any mood to study or do anything.. i have my anatomy project to think about.. and also to revise..

missing home food now.. i bet i wouldnt complain if i get to eat rasam also.. i miss kaya as well.. alamak.. hungry lah..

i'm just to lazy to do anything now.. dont have the mood to even play games, or even watch a movie.. hmmmmmmm... pening..

tomorrow, got badminton tournament, i been under performing.. have i really reached the limit that i cant improve anymore.. and i miss playing chess.. no fun playing with computer.. too predictable...ish.. khor, online often... wanna play....

and to those stpm and spm students.. goodluck.. ^^

~a new hope~

i don't know why i'm having another blog... its just some random things, that a friend advised to me, to make a blog which is not private like the other... maybe i should.. maybe i shouldn't.... do i really need to unmasked this clown? i played the part for too long....
so why not? give it a try...its a way for me to change from what i am.. to be the 'genius' that i claim.. so.. here we go then..