~the adventure continues~

~hakuna matata~

just had to say that, but really, i never expect that the shortest holiday i have would be the most eventful..
some may say bad or good expereience, but i like to look at it thinking, as how much i know myself now, and how much i do impact others life..

today was just beyond, i met with my god-father alone.. i didn't plan of going to his shop for brunch.. but after buying some things at the mall, i had this feeling to visit him, and it just made my day..

and its been years(even he said), since i ordered the curry noodles...
he sat with me, at 1st he didn't say anything, but suddenly he said, that he is and always be proud of me.. not because i'm studying medicine, or whatever achievements, but the person i turned out to be.. said i still had those eyes, that comforts him..and its a joy to see me making jokes and eat with him.. hahaha..

i know its not a compliment or anything.. but i had this sudden rush of warmness in me.. he told me to be the good son that i have been and a good person, and said, a lot people would put trust on me, and it will be paid well, and he is proud to be my papa.. i hugged him after that..although he told me he was dirty and not too.. i really love that old man who tells me stories and really gave me advices and perspectives.. and not only that, being someone that actually made me felt that i matter.. haha.. he told me, to bring a girl to eat breakfast at the shop 1 day... i do want to ask her, but for the time being, she needs to be where she is now, and when everything is stable, i hope i will be able to bring her there..

i know that i'm not a perfect person, i was unable to make someone i love to love me or prevent someone who loves me to leave me.. i guess.. all in all, i am meant to be this way.. though it looks a bit sad that people leaves, but thats how it is.. i know that i would be around. and i don't want to be different.. i do like the way i am now..i feel honest and sincere to myself..

the person who left, i guess, nothing much to be said, except best of luck in everything and with him.. remember yourself, and love yourself, be confident, that you do matter to others, especially to your family, its okay for sometime to opening up to them..
love yourself, and take care it.. study hard, and chase the dreams you can find..

the person who never loved, i guess we went through too much together, we both did a fair share of tantrums and silly arguments... and i know how much you care for me.. and i appreciate it.. though at times, i wish in the future that we would be together, but the future is the future, and it comes a day at a time.. maybe we will and maybe we wont.. i do hope that i would be someone next to your heart and soul.. remember to eat well, and take care of yourself, wait me to graduate to take care of you so that you are well enough to take care of me.. hahaha..

and myself, you do know that these last 2 years, is going to define you as a person and as a doctor.. you met people who are willing to teach you, and you should have the same passion to learn as well.. maybe things are not going the way you want to.. but then, its all in your hands.. you been blessed countless times, and you do realise that.. and be person who you are, don't be someone who you would not be able to look in the mirror at..

i really met a lot of friends and lets say, comrades... i know its far from over, and i'm no where near, but i do know i'm getting closer each day.. and i know i am alive and i would survive!

maybe 1 day i can flood the world with my passion..

not to lose my childhood eyes