~brick and bones~

i guess it's been sometime since i wrote anything here, partly i guess there is too much to write and to much to tell, however to simplify, i guess i have been rather blessed in loads of ways..

well, to start, i felt i didn't played well for badminton, and i feel that i didnt play to how i could, i hessitated a lot of the shots.. why? because i was afraid.. everytime i move i had this tingling sensation that something might happen, thus i never put total efforts to it.. i guess, evenw hen i won the gold medal, i wasn't as happy as i thought i would be. nevertheless, i won a gold. after so long, all the training classes and everything, i guess its the medal for that..a consolation to show that finally you touched where you thought you never will.. and finally can put badminton to a good end.. whether i would play tomorrow? or next year, i don't know i am just excited to come back malaysia and play with old friends

speaking about friends. i guess i am blessed.. no matter how difficult or long distance, these 2 guys, whom i know for alifetime, still manages to bless me.. in ways i can't imagine.. 1 with necessities, another with knowledge.. i just don't know how the puzzle that the gods and angels make, that timing haven't been so well, and things just fall to place.. it's just amazing.. i am very very glad that they see me more than friend, that they encorage and listen to me, at times, they know exactly sort of encouragement i need. words like, "tell me your holidays plan, i know you wont have much time, so i want to adjust my timing to yours or apply my anual leave, so we could hang out before you go back to your studies".. these words make me appreicated that, they actually look forward to meet me.. they never make me choose, but rather to find a common ground for both, so we both make equal sacrifices for our friendship. and that's really a warm feeling.. i am really blessed beyond words to say, i have 2 person, who never left me since i was 7=))

i am doing so many new things lately, and trying to be better, somewhat i know, somehow, for now i am limiting myself, but really i want to be better,and work harder... might be lacking of inspiration, but yeah, somehow i will pull through..

and i know i should be studying, but i couldn't help watching a debate between 2 young leaders from 2 different parties. and to be honest, its been beneficial to me, in common ground, both wants the best for malaysia, and i had to agree with the opposition saying that, it doesn't matter who malaysia votes for, most important, we make an informed unbiased choice based on all the informations and how to perceive who to lead us.. i just hope, more people like them will continue to struggle for the better of the nation, and yes i want to as well. so what i can do for now, is contribute when the election comes, and try to make the choice i deemed fit. and also to learn more about making the society better. that's what i can do for now