~scarlet sand~

I see my infinite dreams coming to an end
Sparks are flying, but my spirit will not break or even bend
Now I see my destiny only brings me pain
Now the sunshine and the shade are forced together again
I choose to follow the light
Flowing through me here tonight
(addicted to the song.. wooooootsssss)

life is good..
but its cold nowadays.. cant predict the weather..
i think i'm falling sick..
wear wrongly today...
feels so cold...
but i like autumn very much..
feels so peaceful..


sometimes i feel helpless..
but that's how it is..
you push your best,
but the other's doen't..
perhaps don't know whats at stake?
can you expect the to listen to you, though older..
i don't know..
feel like to shout and scream..
but..i can't..
that's not my strut..
i forgive the wrong made to me..
its okay..
blood is thick..
but why repeat the same..
forget that i do have feelings too?

oh god.. what should i do...
to give up.. or not to give up..
i don't want see mummy cry...